Sunday, July 10, 2011

Groundhog Day

I feel like I keep living the same day over and over again

I started writing out my day for you, section by section, but it even bored me - so I just deleted it.  There are so many things I want to embrace and dive into, but my job and academia seem to be consuming 99.9% of my time.  I find myself holding my breath - reminding myself that this season of life shall pass.  

I love my blog - I love recipes, decorating, friendships and authentic living - but right now I just feel as if I am falling short of what I want my blog to be. 

My expectations for myself have always been sky high ~ which in some ways is good, but in other ways it leaves me with a feeling of unrest quite often.  I want to embrace the full truth of Apostle Paul when he said, "I have learned in whatever state I am to be content"

I want my writing to be more unique, my recipes to be fancier, my pictures to be clearer, my posts to be more frequent - so I get into this rut of not blogging at all.  But really, this is meant to be a blog about me living life authentically - which means truthfully.  That means I am at liberty to be a bit more honest than the blog that writes about professional decorating. :) (I love those blogs though) 

For this season of my life - I'm trying to lower the standard, which is a funny thing to say.  I don't want to wait until perfection arrives for me to pursue the things I want to pursue.  There are many things in life right now that are completely out of my control and I get the funny feeling that God is trying to teach me to rely solely on Him and not on myself. 

This sums it up:

1 comment:

  1. I know exactly what you mean. My weeks feel the same although they do seem to be getting increasingly weirder. But, like you always say ... it's just a season. And everybody goes through similar seasons - so it's worth blogging about even if it bores you. Some blog posts that would be interesting:

    1. About your job. People do not understand what you do, plus it could be a funny post. ;)
    2. About trying to sell your house, plus photos. Publicity, right?
    3. About the new church location, why you love your church, what you do there each week, etc.
    4. Or you could always borrow my Pinterest blog post ideas when you get tired of writing ... and make collages of things you like. It's sort of relaxing.

    ...Just some ideas.