I feel like I keep living the same day over and over again
I started writing out my day for you, section by section, but it even bored me - so I just deleted it. There are so many things I want to embrace and dive into, but my job and academia seem to be consuming 99.9% of my time. I find myself holding my breath - reminding myself that this season of life shall pass.
I love my blog - I love recipes, decorating, friendships and authentic living - but right now I just feel as if I am falling short of what I want my blog to be.
My expectations for myself have always been sky high ~ which in some ways is good, but in other ways it leaves me with a feeling of unrest quite often. I want to embrace the full truth of Apostle Paul when he said, "I have learned in whatever state I am to be content"
I want my writing to be more unique, my recipes to be fancier, my pictures to be clearer, my posts to be more frequent - so I get into this rut of not blogging at all. But really, this is meant to be a blog about me living life authentically - which means truthfully. That means I am at liberty to be a bit more honest than the blog that writes about professional decorating. :) (I love those blogs though)
For this season of my life - I'm trying to lower the standard, which is a funny thing to say. I don't want to wait until perfection arrives for me to pursue the things I want to pursue. There are many things in life right now that are completely out of my control and I get the funny feeling that God is trying to teach me to rely solely on Him and not on myself.
This sums it up: